***Lots of Bikram yoga (pretty much changing every part of my life, by forcing me to give up bad habits like smoking and excess coffee). A girl changing clothes next to me after class declared “Bikram is the best thing that has every happened to me.” I’m not going to go that far, because I’ve also given birth to an amazing little human, fallen in love here and there, and spent a day at Disneyland…but Bikram is pretty fucking awesome. It’s nice to spend 90 minutes focusing only on my body–in a positive way–instead of thinking about all of the other nearly consuming issues and ideas on my mind. And I can already see a difference in the way my body feels and looks. I like the idea of becoming muscular and super-flexible…a super-heroine version of myself.
***Having my heart broken for the second time by the same person. It only takes one late night drunken and mean-spirited phone call to prevent me from sleeping for days. Maybe that’s not entirely accurate. More clearly: very few people have the power to make me feel that terrible, but this individual inexplicably can twist me into infinite knots. How can I prove to someone that I am not actually a terrible monster?
***I made a new summer Muxtape. You can listen to it here
I’m so tired. It’s been a long week.
Hooray for Saturdays.